My chemo has six stages,
two for each stage = 12 treatments. I just started stage 3 and it’s
kicking..my..ass.
Now is the time when ALL
of the things they warned me about started happening: ALL AT ONCE.
Hunger? What’s that. My
need/want to eat is gone. When I do want to eat, all I want is bread and soup. I
lost 10 of the 15 pounds I gained.
I’m sick to my stomach
all the time. I want to spew chunks at the thought of eating some foods. And I
have been known to spew chunks after everything I eat, no matter what it is.
I shaved my head and it’s
hardly growing back. Neither does the hair on my legs or my eyebrows.
I am tried all the time.
When I have a not tired day, I try to do everything and I end up exhausting
myself so I can’t even move. RadLal had to carry me from one chair to another
so I could eat dinner. And I hardly ate anything.
Everything tastes weird.
Metallic. Even chocolate. Boo.
All I want to do is lay
about and do nothing but I end up sleeping.. So I feel like a lazy sloth who
doesn’t contribute to life. Soooo I work myself harder and get more tired. The
vicious circle.
Chemo is again this
Friday and I’m all out of meds.. so if you wanna donate a little to the fund,
you can.. There is a link on the right ---à
I’m doing ok. My wigs are
hot and I had to take it off yesterday while at breakfast. I cried, a lot. No
one seemed to notice, or care. EXCEPT ME.
It’s still traumatic that
I have stage 4 cancer and I’m handling everything like a trooper. I’m pretty
proud of how strong I have been. Even in
my emo crying moments, I stop crying, shake my head and move on. I have a
pretty amazing support system. So that really helps.
I’m coming up on my
halfway through chemo this Friday or appointment 6 of 12. Then the following
weekend there is a halfway through chemo party. I’m super excited to be halfway
through the treatments.. I hope I can make it all the way through the party.
Since I just want to sleep. Motivation to do anything sucks!!
Anyway! I love you guys!
Thanks for reading my
babble today.
You are Chemogirl! You can do this.
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RadLad
<3 <3
ReplyDeleteSending you hugs and lots of good energy.
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