My Beloved One – Ben Harper
We have both been here before
Knockin' upon love's door
Begging for someone to let us in
Knowing this we can agree to keep each other company
Never to go down that road again
My beloved one, my beloved one
Your eyes shine through me
You are so divine to me
Your heart has a home in mine
We won't have to say a word
With a touch all shall be heard
When I search my heart it's you I find
My beloved one, my beloved one, my beloved one
You were meant for me, I believe you were sent to me from a dream straight into
To my arms
Hold your body close to me
You mean the most to me
We will keep each other safe from harm
Knockin' upon love's door
Begging for someone to let us in
Knowing this we can agree to keep each other company
Never to go down that road again
My beloved one, my beloved one
Your eyes shine through me
You are so divine to me
Your heart has a home in mine
We won't have to say a word
With a touch all shall be heard
When I search my heart it's you I find
My beloved one, my beloved one, my beloved one
You were meant for me, I believe you were sent to me from a dream straight into
To my arms
Hold your body close to me
You mean the most to me
We will keep each other safe from harm
Many
people do not know the story of Radlad. So take a seat and let me spin a yarn
for you.
Radlad
and I were dating when one night I had a coughing fit. I had coughing fits MANY
times before but also had a history of bronchitis. So I thought it was just a
bronchitis thing, no big deal. The cough was so bad that he made me promise to
go to the doctor. And you all know the story from there to the, “Hey Look you
have cancer!” portion of it.
What
you may(or may not know) is that I gave him three opportunities to walk away. I
told him I would completely understand if he wanted to walk away. I gave him
the gentlemanly way to go away. I gave him three opportunities to take the easy
road. I told him I would still be friends with him and call him to let him know
how things were going. He could walk away and find someone else who was not
going through all this drama (divorce and cancer .. the ultimate relationship
killer). I gave him every reason to leave. I did not want the news to get worse
and him look like a giant asshole. We were very fresh into our relationship and
had already been through some crazy times.
And he
stayed.
Radlad
has been to EVERY chemotherapy appointment. He waits patiently and keeps me
calm. I scurry around trying to keep my mind off the fact that I’m about to
poison myself, ON PURPOSE for the sake of a longer life. He gets me juice or
water when I need it. He helps me get disconnected so I can skate my chemo pole
with me to the bathroom. He gets me coffee when I want it. He goes to get
fruits and yogurts at the cafeteria in the hospital. He forces me to relax. He
protects and saves me from myself. All of this while just at chemo.
I tell
him, ‘Thank you’ all the time. Sometimes, I just tell him thank you randomly.
He always asks, ‘what was that for?’. I always want to tell him, ‘everything’.
He is
amazing. He is so many things.
I am a very lucky girl.
I am a very lucky girl.
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